Tobin
A 23-year-old from Portugal working in Geneva as an au pair. Interviewed in February 2018 at Centre de la Roseraie in Geneva. Edited for clarity. Photo and video by Martina Bacigalupo © 2018.
Throughout our day, we were constantly surrounded by all these images, sounds, everything. Advertising, even in the car, listening to the radio. And at home, we got our phones and stuff, and we don't always have silence and time for ourselves. And I think, sometimes, time for ourselves can be scary. Sometimes it can be good.
I cried a little bit [in the booth]. I don't know. I feel a little down today. It's just a bit difficult because sometimes I feel a bit lonely. I don't have any friends in the city. I got family, but it's my mom and she's older. And even though she's very cool and she does a bunch of stuff with me, it's not like friends, you know?
I got, like, my cousin, but he's got his own stuff, so sometimes it's a bit hard. I don't speak the language. I'm learning French now, but yeah. I've been here since, December, but I've been coming and going from Portugal since the summer. I got a house there. I got my friends—like, my whole life is there, basically. I’ve lived there for 17, 18 years.
I moved here because I'm saving for my Masters. I’m starting a Masters in September [in Portugal]. I had stopped a year to save money. In Portugal the work is not well paid, and here it is. I have my mom here. It's easier. I’m working here. I do babysitting. Now I work in a house with four boys. And it's pretty cool. She's from Canada, the mom, and they're super cool. It's like the best job I've ever had. They're like super nice to me. I really like it, and I feel very nice when I'm with them, but sometimes I just wanna go to movies, I wanna be with friends.
It was silent [in the booth] and I had to, like, think about stuff that I was feeling. I was watching Netflix before coming here, while I was eating lunch, and I was watching Jessica Jones and she was saying “Whenever a door opens, you just get another stronger door.” So, like, you bury all the feelings. And I think that's the opposite of healthy, basically. So, I think it's good to have this place [a space for silence]. If the things come up, we need like, to fix them, and to address them, and to talk about that.